Betrayal is the act of violating the trust or confidence of another. It is to be false, faithless, treacherous. To betray is to abandon, desert, deceive; to lead astray; to deliver to an enemy by treachery; to fail or desert especially in time of need; to be unfaithful in guarding; to disappoint the hopes or expectations. … Continue reading Betrayed
"Time loses in the end because at the close of every day I am one day closer to seeing Hans again." Click here to read the full post.
Since Hans left us, attending church is still often difficult for me even though more than twenty months have passed since the crash. But, right from the start, I purposed in my heart that I would not let the enemy of my soul enjoy one iota of victory by getting me to stay at home … Continue reading Why the Grieving Should Go to Church-Even When It Hurts
Like the golden pot, of the wilderness bread, Laid up with the blossoming rod, All safe in the ark, with the law of the Lord, Is the covenant care of my God. http://womenofchristianity.com/after-the-frost-streams-in-the-desert-0925/ Psalm 42 (To the chief Musician, Maschil, for the sons of Korah.) As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth … Continue reading After The Frost – Streams in the Desert 09/25
"...Because they are just butterflies, they do not know they have come into the house to die." Click here to read the entire post.
Originally published October 15, 2016 In these past nine months since Hans drove to the highway, I have dreamed of him only once. I had this dream shortly after he left us and it was very brief. In my dream, Sunday worship had just concluded and Hans was standing with a group of men outside … Continue reading New Friends
When adversity comes, let's not dwell on former “better” days and miss the treasures that Christ has for us in seasons of trial. Source: In Pain, Trust His Grace for Today | Revive Our Hearts
Initially, the pain of child loss is so severe, that it is easy to wonder if it is survivable. Many women say they know they could not survive it. I want to tell them: Yes, you can. If I can, you can. We just have to. But here is something to think about: Surviving … Continue reading Survival is the Starting Point
"This heavy sorrow is what I feel. It is not a reflection of what I, as a Christian, believe. I know where our son is and I believe what God has told me about our eternal home. Why then do I sorrow? It is because each crashing wave of grief is my flesh crying out … Continue reading Revised Post: The Facts
Most of the animals we keep were acquired when our children were young. Our oldest animal, a goat (The Old Lady), died at the ripe old age of eleven just a few months after Hans left us. She was one of our original breeding stock and was a sensible and reliable animal. But one day … Continue reading Empty Stalls, Empty Beds
It would easy to spend all my time preoccupied with the past. The way it was. Looking at – no examining - old photographs. Studying, not just the image of our son, but the background, too. Everyday scenery that has not changed but is so totally different now. Trying to find the what-ifs casually arranged … Continue reading Looking Forward
NOTE: The following was written some time ago on a rather difficult day. I needed to get this out of my heart and onto paper. I wasn't going to publish it. But maybe it will help someone. It's pretty raw, but here it is... Why I Do Not Want to Move On. Why I Do … Continue reading Cleaning House
Death is not the enemy, for it has been conquered by the Lord Jesus Christ. He rose the third day, defeating death forever. Death cannot keep me from Hans. No, death will reunite me with him. And distance is not the real enemy, either. Hans’ body, though inanimate, is here with us at home, buried … Continue reading Time. The Enemy?
Of the many beautiful flowers that were given for Hans’ memorial service, only one is still alive and thriving in our home, an orchid, with its one big showy cluster of purple flowers at the end of a long vine-like stem. After we brought it home from the service, wrapped in plastic to protect it … Continue reading The Butterfly
In these past nine months since Hans drove to the highway, I have dreamed of him only once. I had this dream shortly after he left us and it was very brief. In my dream, Sunday worship had just concluded and Hans was standing with a group of men outside on the lawn in front … Continue reading New Friends