Healing After Child Loss

I still get those moments where I just can't comprehend that Hans is gone from us. But the difference now is the intensity. Those first weeks and months, and into the second year, it would just immobilize me - the pain saturated me through and through - I didn't know such pain existed. Back then, …

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Not Sure: What if My Departed Child is Lost?

  "What if all this stuff about Heaven and Hell is true?  What if I have no reason to believe my child knew anything about Jesus.  What if I failed to tell my child the most important thing in all the world?  What if my child is now eternally lost?  How can I ever live …

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Though We Mourn, We Must Not Murmur!

by John Angell James (1785—1859), on the death of his wife, from: "Sorrow for the Death of Friends" ...Naked came I out of my mother's womb, and naked shall I return thither: the LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD. Job 1:21 When a holy and beloved …

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No Words

Kincaid Park, Anchorage, Alaska “How are you doing?” There are no words in any language that are sufficient to the task of expressing what I am experiencing.  That is why, in some cultures, the women wail when someone dies.  Even wailing is inadequate.  There are some things that cannot be halved by sharing them.  Grief …

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Storms of Bereavement

“Jesus Christ is no security against storms, but He is perfect security in storms. He has never promised you an easy passage, only a safe landing.” Oh, set your sail to the heavenly gale, And then, no matter what winds prevail, No reef can wreck you, no calm delay; No mist shall hinder, no storm …

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Forgetting

Can a woman forget her sucking child, that she should not have compassion on the son of her womb? yea, they may forget, yet will I not forget thee. Behold, I have graven thee upon the palms of my hands; Isaiah 49:15-16 There are things about Hans I will never forget for as long as …

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