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Grief Quote #1

"No one ever told me that grief felt so much like fear." C.S. Lewis

Looking Forward

Reality demands that I accept the facts as they are.  It is a matter of discipline to remember those facts, believe them, and live them with love, purpose, and praise for my Father in Heaven who loves me and in whose presence Hans now is.

Eight Reasons Why I Will Not See a Psychic Medium

What does the Bible say about psychic mediums? Since God forbids this sort of thing, He is not about to give special, private information to people who are profiting by disregarding His Word. Ignoring the clear command of God is never a good idea.

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Thoughts on Psalm 55

The writings of other parents who have buried children have been of tremendous comfort to me.  It is nothing short of a rescue at sea to read your own heartache in the words of another; to wail through sloppy tears, "Yes, that's just how it is!" Likewise, I often find my emotions voiced perfectly in the pages of God's Word.

“I’ll Be Right Back”

If Jesus rose from the dead, then everything he said is true; and if he did not rise from the dead, it is false.

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Thoughts on Psalm 84

Just one day with God in glory is better than a thousand blessed days down here on the earth.  A day with Him in Heaven is jam-packed with unimaginable blessing.  The beauty of here is just a shadow - embryonic.  The wonders of there are beyond the scope of our perception.  There can be no comparison – our understanding is far too limited.

Christmas Prayer

For unto us a child is born, unto us a son is given: and the government shall be upon his shoulder: and his name shall be called Wonderful, Counsellor, The mighty God, The everlasting Father, The Prince of Peace.  Isaiah 9:6 At Christmas time each year, Manfred always takes the children off into the woods …

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Precious

I can truthfully say, with a hurting, but thankful heart, that the Lord is preserving me through this trial.  I stand softened and malleable to his loving hand as He bathes my raw wounds with His love.  I experience a heightened sensitivity to his presence in the depths of my pain.  I believe I am …

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Time. The Enemy?

Death is not the enemy, for it has been conquered by the Lord Jesus Christ.  He rose the third day, defeating death forever.  Death cannot keep me from Hans.  No, death will reunite me with him. And distance is not the real enemy, either.  Hans’ body, though inanimate, is here with us at home, buried …

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Home

In My Father's House Hans spent most of his life right here at home in the house he grew up in.  Of course he went places and did things.  He spent his first birthday in California while we were down there visiting family.  But other than that he never left the state of Alaska.  He …

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Thankful

Our Lord is good.  He is merciful.  He is righteous. Let's thank Him. Thanksgiving Bible Verses 1 Thessalonians 5:18 In every thing give thanks: for this is the will of God in Christ Jesus concerning you. Psalm 95:2 Let us come before his presence with thanksgiving, and make a joyful noise unto him with psalms. …

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Desires of a Mother’s Heart

And this is the confidence that we have in him, that, if we ask any thing according to his will, he heareth us: And if we know that he hear us, whatsoever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we desired of him.   1 John 5:14-15 Every prayer I have ever uttered …

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Not Sure

"… I am quite certain I will see Hans again." Our son, Hans, like all of us, had his faults.  He was a sinner, as we all are.  Romans 3:23  1 John 1:8  Romans 3:10 However, Hans was saved - he was a Christian - one who has placed his trust in Jesus Christ alone …

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New Friends

In these past nine months since Hans drove to the highway, I have dreamed of him only once.  I had this dream shortly after he left us and it was very brief. In my dream, Sunday worship had just concluded and Hans was standing with a group of men outside on the lawn in front …

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Compelled

It is over seven months now since Hans left us for Heaven, yet I still get these illogical, unrealistic, untrue thoughts/longings/compulsions to find him.  For instance: It’s such a beautiful breezy day; it’s hot and the birds are singing… He must be out in the fields or walking along the railroad tracks.  If I start …

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